Monday, November 25, 2013

The Accumulation of Indecision

Someone close to me told me I am very good at getting people to "get off the dime" and choose a direction to go.  I confess that making decisions is not difficult for me.  Perhaps it is because I have no fear of regret.  Or perhaps I dislike the inertia of indecision more than the unknown consequences of a choice made.

Lately, my ability to post to this blog, to rest without stress, and even escape into entertainment have been thwarted because I have been helping a loved one move out of a home that will be, if all goes as planned, condemned and bulldozed in the coming weeks.  Decades of hoarded items, each the germ of a potential project, had become an overwhelming pile of of procrastination.  If the road to hell is paved with good intentions, certainly these items occupied the rest stops along the way. 

While I tried my best to make decisions about items that their owner would agree with, eventually I could not make progress looking through those eyes.  I became overwhelmed and depressed at so much left undecided, to the point that I had started doing what he had done:  I just moved items from one pile to another, postponing the decision until later.  Eventually, I had to become my brutally cold deciding self, since all of what he viewed as treasure I could see was turning into trash that was burying him alive.  Even so, I know he will not look at what I've done as something that makes him happy.  He still has intentions for items he has not touched in over 30 years.

In business, the inability to make a decision, whether it is from analysis paralysis or lack of alignment, doesn't mean that nothing is happening.  But it does mean that what is happening will not be strategic;  it will be at a comfort level of the persons deciding (which typically is not stretching towards innovation or even breaking a pattern of flat-line growth).  If you're waiting for someone else to make the decision for you, rest assured... there is always someone out there like me, willing to make a decision for you if you tarry too long. 

If you are a believer in Christ, you should not fear making decisions, since He has your back (and your front) on all things.  He'd rather see you try and fall down (and get up again), then just stand there waiting to perfect walking by, um, standing.  A stone tablet will probably not fall out of the sky with instructions on it.  He's believing you've learned to listen to that still small voice that says, "go this way".  If you're unsure, ask Him for wisdom and guidance, then step out.  He'll help you.

Monday, November 11, 2013

Retreating to the Womb

Unless you are a hermit, you will from time to time make an acquaintance or friend that seems constantly plagued with health issues that prevent them, almost on queue, from keeping their commitments.

The body is a trustworthy barometer of what we refuse to admit emotionally. No man likes to think he is not manly, and the perceptions that come with that manliness (kill it, drag it home to eat it) don't always match the feelings...like the overwhelming desire to remain snugly tucked into a warm protected place where we are cared for rather than having to support others.

The lack of feeling cared for is the root of so many illnesses. People make fun of you if you say you are too scared to face your job or your battlefield; they rally around you when you can prove physical infirmity or injury....at least for awhile. One dear friend of many years suffered from so many physical ailments that it really didn't matter when one was healed; another sprang up in its place. It was her body's way of coping with the long seeping raw emotional sores that would not heal.... Because justice was not done.

We can easily become walking memorials to the injustice done to our souls. This barrier keeps us transfixed on what is broken in our lives rather than in pursuit of perfect love from Him, which allows us to transcend any tragedy with the promise of wholeness.

The brave soul who gets up, dressed and through the crowds to the job they merely endure for a less than sustainable paycheck is a bit better but not much. They are "coping".... The world"s version of purgatory for the soul. This is not victory, as there is still a sense of victimhood which has no place in the life of the believer.

Thankfully, He is always with us, and when we pursue Him we will feel His presence more real than anything around us. To be in the shadow of His wing is to know the comfort and protection of the womb without its helplessness.  To dwell in the secret place of the Most High means we can be both coddled like the children we are, and brave like the warriors we need to be for the weaker around us.

Today, may you dwell in that secret place and know His strength.